Inside out

every time I go
I swear I'll never go back again

is it here or
is it there or
isn't it at all

this happiness inside
deep inside I know
but deep inside's not good enough
I've got to let it show

I hide myself behind me
I have to let me go
but every time I try
I'd rather lie for a better day

this paranoid confusion
I can't take it anymore
but every time I leave
I just go back again